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[05 Dec 2009|04:24pm] |
i am under the greatest amount of stress right now. it will not get any better until december 10th, when the semester is over with.
until then, expect to run into a very sleep-deprived, crazy bitch.
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[22 Nov 2009|11:17pm] |
im currently talking with sarah online and im really starting to realize something...
how much i freaking miss that girl. <3 ROOMIES FOR LIFE!
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[11 Nov 2009|10:18pm] |
im out of credit card debt.
im a total effing wreck.
check back on december 10th when it will all be over.
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| NOT Wonder Woman |
[08 Nov 2009|10:29pm] |
I have clearly bitten off more than I can chew.
Not only have I suffered a plethora of panic attacks and mental break downs this semester, I have had a kidney infection that was horrible, I failed two semester tests, I don’t sleep, I gained weight, and I have been a cranky bitch to basically everyone I cross paths with.
So what is there to do? Well next semester I am dropping down to only a part time student. This whole working full-time and taking 4 classes is killing me. Plus if I drop down to only a part time student then BOCES will end up paying for 100% of my tuition.
The downside to dropping down to a part time student is? I will end up graduating in Fall of 2011, and I get kicked off of my Dad’s health insurance with no opportunity to re-join if I ever need to. BOCES offers incredible health insurance, so I’m pretty much set with that as long as I continue working for them. I’m pretty much a healthy kid, so I’m gonna cross my fingers and pray that I wont have to dip into my insurance funds too much in the up-coming year.
This semester I worked a full-time job, a part time job, babysat one day a week, and took 4 grad classes. Wtf was I thinking? I mean I enjoy being “Wonder Woman” and all but jeeeeeez. I have been running myself into the ground. I am paying $20 a month for a gym membership and have not been to the gym since the end of August. How sad. No wonder I have turned into a fat-ass.
Working at Bonton next semester is up in the air right now. I’m unsure if I will be able to BOCES summer school, which would mean having Bonton there to lean back on would be a good idea. But I really don’t get much out of working there except a tiny discount and some extra spending money.
I’m not sure how much longer I will be babysitting for this family either. The parents are in the middle of a NASTY divorce. Ugh. I’m not going to get into the details but it is almost ridiculous at times. I don’t want to get in the middle of it at all so I may end up politely backing out of the situation.
My job at BOCES is still going great. I’m starting to see some of the nasty politics that are at every job, which has tainted my glorious view of BOCES a little bit. Luckily I’m not too involved in all of them so life there is still riding along smoothly.
Stella is on her way out. =( Poor girl. A new car may be in my new future. Now if I can only decide between a Mazda 3 or a Honda Civic. Mmmm cars.
Traveling may be in my near future too! The first weekend in February Mike and I are going to D.C. for a long weekend to visit Josh and Allison and see the city and go to the hockey game on Sunday. Later that month I may fly down to see Sarah in Florida, and then in April I may go see Maura in Seattle, and June may hold another trip to Ireland to see Emma! I miss my Emma. My life has been incomplete without all of my Fredonia lovers there on a daily basis. =(
So that’s my life right now. I’m officially 23, going crazy, and living life day by day. How are you doing?
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[13 Oct 2009|07:09am] |
kill me now kill me now kill me now. tomorrow's midterm is going to be the death of me.
the light at the end of the tunnel? afi concert on friday.
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[04 Oct 2009|09:36pm] |
stressed stressed stressed.
i need tea.
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[30 Sep 2009|10:58pm] |
I have two papers to write, and a million trillion zillion pages to read for grad school. But all I want to do is read the 3rd Sookie Stackhouse novel: Club Dead, and re-read The Lovely Bones. Man I can't wait for that movie to come out.
For now I'm going to stick with bed. Wednesdays I go nonstop (work and school) for 15hours. I'm beat.
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[20 Sep 2009|08:20pm] |
my parents want me to start paying rent. to them. so i can live in my own home. live in the smallest room in my own home.
fml.
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[17 Sep 2009|07:12pm] |
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overwhelmed.
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[05 Sep 2009|08:50pm] |
breaking news:
friday i landed my dream job. i now work full time at monroe 1 boces. as a paraeducater. in a classroom of severely disabled high schoolers. i get some seriously sweet health insurance. i get paid sick days. paid holidays. and paid personal days. and they have a tuition reimbursement of up to $6000 a semester for grad school.
heavennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
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[24 Aug 2009|07:07pm] |
tonight i started grad school. im stressed to the max already, and its only day one.
welcome to adulthood.
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[14 Aug 2009|03:20pm] |
today i joined a gym. planet fitness to be exact. i want to lose weight, get in shape, and just generally feel good about myself. i have not felt very good about myself in a while. which i hate. i like feeling confident and secure. i miss the way i felt last fall. hopefully i can get back into it.
mike's cabin for the weekend!
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[26 Jun 2009|02:11pm] |
so hey there.
Europe is amazing. Ireland was insanely awesome. I have had the time of my life here. France is just as wonderful. I can't even begin to describe all of the amazing things I have done, let along the feeling of independence and knowledge i have gained thus far on this trip. can i just say this one of the greatest things i have ever done?
ok, time to go for a walk along the town streets of langon, find some food for dinner, and engoy the gorgeous weather here.
back in the states on thursday. lots of stories for you then :)
salud!
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[12 Jun 2009|07:27pm] |
I leave for Europe on Wednesday, and while I am so unbelievably excited I feel like I planned to be in a different financial situation before I left. I wanted to have way more money saved up for this trip and I wanted to have my credit card bill paid off more. Oi, I dunno. I am seriously looking forward to a nice long vacation though. NO WORK FOR 15 DAYSSS.
Today I happened to have the day off and I spent it sleeping in (which I haven't done in forever), visiting the zoo with Mike (another thing I have not done in forever), and then eating dinner at Famous Dave's (something I have never done). Now the Final Game of the Stanley cup is about to come on, I'm so full from an amazing meal, I need to figure out this prepaid phone bit so I hopefully have a means of communication while in Europe (so I have to run to the mall), then I will most likely pick Aaron up from work before turning in early before working all day tomorrow. No more days off before I leave for Europe! Insane.
I guess I should just be happy and feel lucky that I even get the chance to travel to Europe. :)
Au Revoire!
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[14 May 2009|11:06pm] |
Today I landed a part time job working for the East Irondequit Children's Center as a preschool classroom aid. 7:45-11:15, M-F. I was so shocked and excited I didn't even ask how much I would be making. I start July 6th. The summer program is 6 weeks long. The only down side to all of this is that I will HAVE to miss my annual family vacation at our cottage. :( BUT- if this job turns into something permanent and I land a full-time position, they will help pay for grad school.
I feel like such an adult now.
P.s. I just realized I will be working 3 jobs this summer. OMG.
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[04 May 2009|09:50pm] |
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last week of student teaching. damn.
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[23 Apr 2009|11:00pm] |
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everytime i look at my credit card debt and realize how much i owe in student loans and how i have not even begun to do anything about financial aid for grad school, i end up having a panic attack. finances suck.
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[10 Apr 2009|10:34am] |
I love when my school gets put on lock-down: no one tells you what is going on, you have to close and lock all doors/windows, you have to blockade all doors/windows, you have to sit in a corner of the room, and you cant leave for ANYTHING.
This really, really sucks when you have to pee.
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[07 Apr 2009|06:39am] |
I think my body is rejecting me. All I have been doing is sleeping, throwing up, and battling headaches left and right. ugh.
Last weekend at Fredonia rocked. Too bad I got a speeding ticket on the way home. :(
Can I please be on Spring Break now?
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[18 Mar 2009|10:34pm] |
Tomorrow I am making Crepes with my students. It's going to be awesome.
I'm such a cool teacher.
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[24 Feb 2009|10:41pm] |
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im pretty sure i have a schizophrenic on my case load for student teaching.
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[20 Feb 2009|01:50pm] |
Sweeney Todd at Geva Theater was AMAZING!
I recommend that you all go. ASAP. And buy the tickets from the Geva box office as opposed to online- since you can get a college student discount- I guess its $5 off, or $8 if you buy the day of the play.
Oh, and no seat is a bad seat. Mike and I were in the balconey off to the side and it was just fine. Geva is small enough so that all of the seats are good. :)
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[18 Feb 2009|10:51pm] |
Flight to Cork, Ireland : 526.37
FLight from Cork, Ireland to Paris, France: 67.82
FLight from Bordeaux, France, back home: 549.43
Going back to Europe for over 2 weeks after I graduate because I freakin' deserve it: priceless. =)
I don't care if I have to sell my soul and work my ass off until the day I leave (June 23rd); the trip is booked, I'm going, and I couldn't be happier. =)
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[15 Feb 2009|10:25pm] |
I'm taking Mike to see Sweeney Todd at Geva on Thursday. We both have the day off, so I hope it all goes perfect! The only problem is that I let slip how much the tickets were, and now I think Mike is pissed. Hey, entertainment is pricey now-a-days.
I'm officially home! No more undergraduate classes. Ever! No more working at Craston dining hall. Ever! Just student teaching from here on out, although I must say I am pretty intimidated. Last Tuesday I visited BOCES #1- where I'm student teaching, and all the kids there are SO much bigger than me! Heels or no heels, I'm a little frightened to tick any of those students off! Most of them are high school aged, and my case load seems very diverse. I got my parking sticker, I.D. tag, and building access. I even have my own desk! Crazy. My cooperating teacher is so sweet. She got me a lamp for my desk because "student teachers can't work in the dark!" On the day I visited she showed me around, then took me out to lunch and insisted on paying. Oh, and small world- her son-in-law to-be may know Mike.
I have this week off since the school districts are on their February breaks. I'm only working 3 days, so I guess I'll occupy myself with cleaning? Somebody book me, please!
Oh, and I'm selling my Wii. Know of anyone who wants a Wii? It's in great condition, I have a couple of games, including Guitar Hero (with guitar), 4 remotes, one nunchuck, and a cooling stand.
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[16 Jan 2009|10:55am] |
applying for grad school is scaring the hell out of me more than you could possibly know. i barely slept last night because i told myself i was going to write my admissions essay today and submit everything by saturday that way when i went back to school it would all just be over and done with.
im in total freak-out mode.
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[13 Jan 2009|09:59pm] |
second ski trip of the year: windy, but not too cold. not crowded at all. no falls (knock on wood). slighty sore legs and seriously swollen knees though. but all-in-all an awesome time. :)
I work early early shifts this week. two mornings i start at 545am, and tomorrow i start at 8. boo. and friday i work til 1 am. who knew bonton would have such hours?
cuddle time with the boy. maybe i can talk him into massaging my sore legs. :)
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[24 Nov 2008|10:04pm] |
Thanksgiving Break=
-driving home and then to ithaca in the same day
-making 2 giant pans of spinach and artichoke dip
-watching aaron and his apartment-mates devour one pan in a flash
-seeing alex, kerri and melissa, who i really, really needed to see
-working almost 30hrs at BonTon in 4 days (gross)
-warm welcomings and hugs from my coworkers i have not seen in forever
-getting a haircut- bye bye 3 inches
-trying out a new chinese food place
-seeing Mike :)
-going to Michigan on Wednesday
-seeing my family in Michigan
-just being in Michigan after not being there for 4 years
-having a paper and a project due the day i get back from break
p.s. i met and partied with Thursday. yes, Thursday the BAND. be jealous :P
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[17 Nov 2008|10:28pm] |
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why is livejournal being mean to me?
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| sick sick sick |
[15 Oct 2008|04:42pm] |
I got a flu shot yesterday, and it has come back to bite me in the ass. I woke up this morning exhausted as hell (despite the fact that I slept for oh, a good 13 hours last night), and throwing up non-stop. I barely made it through my first class. I went back to the health center today and after a battery of tests, blood-work, and examinations it turns out I have the stomach flu. “Yeah… the stomach flu is not something the flu shot prevents, sorry.” Thanks Mrs. Nurse Practitioner. So I have 24 hours ahead of me of liquids and rest. I’m going to try to use this time to get ahead of my school work.
The leaves all over campus are so pretty. Yellow, red, orange. It definitely feels like fall, and any doubts I had otherwise were erased when the leaf blower went past my window this morning. Halloween this year is going to be exciting! I can’t wait to go out with all my girlies. I just need to make sure my butt does not hang out of my Bumble Bee costume, and get a pair of shoes to match, and I’m good to go!
The GRE’s are friggin’ scary, let me tell you. I took them over Fall Break and I’m not very happy with my score. 400 on the Verbal part and 570 on Math. I’m going to wait to see how everything factors out when I get the official scores in the mail soon, but I have a feeling I’m going to be taking the test again. I heard if you get 1000+ on it you are set for grad school, so I have just 30 more points to earn. Too bad earning those damn 30 points are going to cost me another $140 to take the test. Maybe this time I will take it at UB so I can see Kerri. =)
I have gingerale in hand; its off to see what’s on tv!
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[06 Oct 2008|11:59pm] |
to leave for fall break tomorrow? or to wait and leave on wednesday like a good girl? that is the question at hand...
i have a giant, disgusting burn on my left forearm from work. 2nd degree. its going to leave a giant scar for the rest of my life. i'm pretty pissed about it, but there is really nothing i can do. i keep rubbing ointment in it in the hopes of a not-so-noticeable scar forming. we will just have to seen how it turns out in time. right now it burns and itches like crazy and all i want to do it scratch it but there is no way i would. it's in the shape of a J and i keep telling everyone that it either stands for JESUS or stands for "Jason cuz that bastard cheated on me and i killed his lying ass"
ok its late and i need to go to bed. night.
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| 2 weeks of summer left?! |
[11 Aug 2008|08:34pm] |
I am so refreshed after a much needed week-long vacation at our cottage. The weather was pretty lame, raining every day, but I was able to get plenty of sun and waterskiing in, so it’s all good. I’m on my second load of laundry, my room is super clean, and I worked 8 hours today, so I am basically back to reality/work mode. I’m trying my hardest to get my shifts covered this weekend so I can go with Mike and his family down to their cabin Saturday-Sunday. My secret plan is to stay late and work as many extra hours as possible so I can reach almost 40 hours by Friday. That way I won’t be allowed to work my Saturday shift- since apparently it is forbidden to work over time at the BonTon. Of course, this pop-up eye appointment on Friday is jeopardizing my all-day Friday shift. Hopefully I will figure it all out.
I leave on the 23 rd! Where has all the time gone?! I have to say I’m excited to get back to Fredonia and wrap up my last semester on campus. Weird. I know it is pretty cliché to say, but I really can remember my first college move in day like it was yesterday. Wow, think how far I’ve come since then. *pat on back*
I have decided to save, save, save, and spend my savings on another trip to Europe. I’m graduating this year, and I am making this sort of a graduation present to myself. Maura will be living in France for another year, starting in September, and I want to fly over and visit her, perhaps for a week and a half or two weeks this time (as long as my wallet can afford it). Since I will be there for a longer period of time (I’m shooting for two weeks), there is a possibility of “country-jumping” and site-seeing a bunch of different countries while I am there. Maura I guess will have a lengthy break from her teaching job in mid-May= same time I graduate. So this could seriously work out and be great. +I think it’s a pretty achievable goal, with my extra work hours at school and a *gasp* raise too. Plus I’m no longer in debt with my car and BonTon has assured me basically 39.9 hour weeks during the holiday season.
So much to do! So little time!
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[21 Jul 2008|11:26pm] |
5 weeks left of summer? Where has the time gone? It’s flying by so fast since I am working so much. 60 + hours a week. There have been a lot of days where I watch the kids all morning then I work all night, and repeat the same thing tomorrow. Exhaustion has definitely been a frequent state for me this summer. The bags under my eyes are disgusting. But I’m debt free and saving money, minus the back to school shopping I have done this past week. I needed to get a few things for the cottage, also. Two weeks until Lake George! Finally. I have only waited all summer! Sadly, Mike can’t come up with me this year. I’m pretty bummed out about that, but there is always next year and stuff.
My room is actually clean for once and it is totally making me feel organized and in control of everything.
I have another promotion at my job at school. Woo! And lots of hours which will help keep me busy and financed this semester. Amen to that. Plus BonTon has no problem having me work when I come home on weekends and holiday breaks. Which is wonderful.
Aaron has been following in my footsteps some more, and got a job at BonTon too. We need to stop working together.
I miss all my friends a lot. Where is everyone?! We are all so busy!
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[07 Jun 2008|11:22pm] |
After summer school is over at the end of June, I may try working two jobs. Meaning going back to Perkins. It's pretty horrible, but if it means paying all the bills and everything then i guess it is worth it. Plus, I'm not getting a ton of hours at BonTon, so I'm sure working at Perkins would make it more than enough.
My phone charger has turned into a piece of crap, only half charging my phone most of the time which leads it to die mid-day. Not fun. When I have some free time I should go to the Verizon store and check that out...
What else is new? Boston was fabulous. Coming home turned out to be a royal pain in the butt, but I ended up spending the night with Josh so I got to visit him for about 14 hours which was nice.
It has been incredibly hot the past couple of days. I wish we had air conditioning in our house, I have not slept very well the past couple of nights because of this heat. Maybe I will just buy my own mini air conditioner for my room and really turn it into a tropical oasis. This dream is "pay-check pending," of course.
I want to go shoe shopping really bad. This too, is "pay-check pending."
Working all day tomorrow. Must sleep.
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[17 May 2008|02:35am] |
Why my father is a moron:
So I wake up this morning hearing “Dad is going to the hospital.” What? Am I still dreaming? Nope. My dad smashed his head on the landing gear of the airplane he was working on at his job, and earned himself a trip to the hospital and 6 staples in his head. Afterwards, he just goes on his merry way back to work, with blood still oozing down his forehead. AND THEN instead of calling to get a ride home from work at the end of his day, HE RIDES HIS DANG MOTORCYCLE HOME WITH THE HELMET ON. Ughhhhhhh. He messed up those staples and made his head bleed.
I’m calling him Frankenstein all week.
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[15 May 2008|12:49am] |
It’s late and I should probably go to bed since I am exhausted but I figured why not post real quick first?
My room feels so different with bare walls and everything of mine packed up and thrown into the middle of the floor waiting to be carried out tomorrow night. Sarah is staying until Saturday so it feels odd having all of my stuff packed up and gone and her stuff still out and in use. Thank god for summer. Only one more final tomorrow and then home for a good 3 months. It’s about time!
I’m a total moron. I sign up to work almost 25hours this week. Including two days of double shifts, back to back. What was I thinking? Coming back on Monday at noon, then work 25 hours and still have time to take finals all before Thursday at 4? I bit more than I could chew. I’m paying for it in the form of a cold, my nose is running nonstop and my head feels all congested. Dammit. Hopefully 3 days off will do me good before I dive into working full time at Bonton and going to summer school. Woo two pysch courses 8-noon Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday for a month. Yay for earning a minor!
Exciting news: I’m going to Boston (again). May 28-31. I’m so excited to see Maura and see her graduate and see some family members and fly and go shopping and see beautiful Boston. I love that city so much. I hope the weather is really nice that weekend! *knock on wood*
Sarah is visiting this weekend on her way home to Syracuse. Woo! We are going shopping and eating at Aja Noodle and I may take her to the Lilac fest too if she is not too tired.
What else is going on? Not much. Working, Summer, killing myself, unpacking (soon).
I really want to go to the Lilac fest this weekend. Any takers?
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[27 Apr 2008|11:25pm] |
I have a baking problem.
Today I made about 3 dozen cupcakes. Last weekend I made a giant cake (chocolate and vanilla) and frosted it to look argyle. Then I made brownies with a cream cheese topping. The weekend before that I made Alfredo sauce. I have turned into Betty Crocker.
This is my last full week of clinical. Crazy. I’m going to miss my kids a lot. They have made a lot of progress this semester. On paper it doesn’t look like a lot of progress but I have poured my blood, sweat, and tears into being the best student clinician I could be this semester and to me these kids have made a lot of progress.
Friday night I saw Paramore, for the first time. It was amazing. Jaw-droppingly amazing. I couldn’t see very well during parts of the show, but the music was outstanding. Ahhh, so good. Definitely going to be a night I will remember when I am old and crippled.
This weekend is FredFest. I realllllly hope Alex and Victoria can come up. I want Kerri to come up too but I guess she has to go home? Pffsh home. Who goes home? Just kidding Kerri I love you.
I have to finish these reports and sleep and do more work in the morning. Night!
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[16 Apr 2008|11:34pm] |
I felt like such a jerk at clinical on Tuesday.
So I had to test my little boy to see how his progress is going, and determine the possibility that he could test out of therapy. I start administering this standardized test to exam certain parts of my client’s language, and my little boy starts doing horribly. I mean, he was absolutely bombing this test, and I started to feel horrible because as the examiner I can’t do certain things to help the kid out, like cue him, repeat statements, or anything; so when my little boy asked me to I had to tell him no. How horrible is that? Half way through giving my test I can tell my little guy has basically given up trying, and is so frustrated he is about to cry. I wanted to give him an entire page of stickers or something to cheer him up, I felt so awful.
Right after he leaves I start going through the test and scoring things, and I went to look up a percentile in a table based on my client’s age, and I can’t find his age anywhere. Turns out I gave the poor kid the wrong test, one that was so much higher than anyone’s abilities at his age. This made me feel good and bad at the same time. Good in the sense that maybe my little guy is not failing these categories after all, and bad in the sense that I put that poor 7 year old through that hell for nothing.
School is going so well. I turned in a paper on Monday a week early, Sarah and I are living in the same room again next year (woo 3 years in a row), I got a 92 on a test I just took, and Kelsey just visited which made my week. =)
I got a new job working at Bonton this summer. So long Perkins and your crappiness. Its minimum wage but whatever, I’ll be getting about 30-35 hours a week so I’m not complaining, it will be enough for a summer job.
Life is going good. Kerri’s dance recital is on Sunday, Paramore concert next weekend, Fredfest after that, dead week, a few finals, and then HOME for summer!
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[09 Mar 2008|09:33pm] |
i work too much.
i sleep too little.
i really need to lose some weight.
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| heartsheartshearts |
[16 Feb 2008|11:21am] |
I feel so grow up.
I wake up early Tuesdays and Thursdays so I can shower and get ready and have a skinny cinnamon dolce latte from Starbucks in my hand and be at the school by 8am. I wear professional, business type clothes, even if they are expensive as heck (coughcough $50 pants cough). And small heels. My kids are miraculously shorter than me (even without the heels) so I feel so grown up and adult like and authoritative. My kids look to me for help and to learn. I feel like I am making a difference everyday, even if my only accomplishment is teaching Zach that there are no a’s in president. On Thursday I taught him the line “I want to be President” to teach him to remember I instead of a. It was such a high to see the lightbulb go off in his head. When a kid has that look of “oh…NOW I get it” it is priceless. Brianna is spunky and I am determined to teach her how to speak without a lisp. She has been showing a lot of regression because she has not had therapy for a month and a half, but I want to catch her up and have her accomplish a lot this semester.
I am so unbelievabley broke right now. $2000 to IRA funds. $42 to the state for taxes. $340 for car insurance. $40 to put 3/4 of a tank of gas in my car. I have never looked so forward to a paycheck in my liiiife.
Next week Mike is probably coming up to visit for a couple days. Woo! I love having my boy around.
I need to grab something to eat and get cracking on these Plan Of Care’s for my clients due on Monday. And I need to ditch this cold asap because it is giving me an ear infection and I can’t hear out of my right ear correctly and its making cock my head funny to try to compensate.
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