I Place Where I Can Get Away

allthestarzfell @ 2009-12-05T16:24:00

2009-12-05T21:24:24Z

i am under the greatest amount of stress right now. it will not get any better until december 10th, when the semester is over with.

until then, expect to run into a very sleep-deprived, crazy bitch.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-11-22T23:17:00

2009-11-23T04:17:48Z

im currently talking with sarah online and im really starting to realize something...

how much i freaking miss that girl. <3 ROOMIES FOR LIFE!

allthestarzfell @ 2009-11-11T22:18:00

2009-11-12T03:19:41Z

im out of credit card debt.

im a total effing wreck.

check back on december 10th when it will all be over.

NOT Wonder Woman

2009-11-09T03:49:08Z

I have clearly bitten off more than I can chew.
Not only have I suffered a plethora of panic attacks and mental break downs this semester, I have had a kidney infection that was horrible, I failed two semester tests, I don’t sleep, I gained weight, and I have been a cranky bitch to basically everyone I cross paths with.
So what is there to do? Well next semester I am dropping down to only a part time student. This whole working full-time and taking 4 classes is killing me. Plus if I drop down to only a part time student then BOCES will end up paying for 100% of my tuition.
The downside to dropping down to a part time student is? I will end up graduating in Fall of 2011, and I get kicked off of my Dad’s health insurance with no opportunity to re-join if I ever need to. BOCES offers incredible health insurance, so I’m pretty much set with that as long as I continue working for them. I’m pretty much a healthy kid, so I’m gonna cross my fingers and pray that I wont have to dip into my insurance funds too much in the up-coming year.
This semester I worked a full-time job, a part time job, babysat one day a week, and took 4 grad classes. Wtf was I thinking? I mean I enjoy being “Wonder Woman” and all but jeeeeeez. I have been running myself into the ground. I am paying $20 a month for a gym membership and have not been to the gym since the end of August. How sad. No wonder I have turned into a fat-ass.
Working at Bonton next semester is up in the air right now. I’m unsure if I will be able to BOCES summer school, which would mean having Bonton there to lean back on would be a good idea. But I really don’t get much out of working there except a tiny discount and some extra spending money.
I’m not sure how much longer I will be babysitting for this family either. The parents are in the middle of a NASTY divorce. Ugh. I’m not going to get into the details but it is almost ridiculous at times. I don’t want to get in the middle of it at all so I may end up politely backing out of the situation.
My job at BOCES is still going great. I’m starting to see some of the nasty politics that are at every job, which has tainted my glorious view of BOCES a little bit. Luckily I’m not too involved in all of them so life there is still riding along smoothly.
Stella is on her way out. =( Poor girl. A new car may be in my new future. Now if I can only decide between a Mazda 3 or a Honda Civic. Mmmm cars.
Traveling may be in my near future too! The first weekend in February Mike and I are going to D.C. for a long weekend to visit Josh and Allison and see the city and go to the hockey game on Sunday. Later that month I may fly down to see Sarah in Florida, and then in April I may go see Maura in Seattle, and June may hold another trip to Ireland to see Emma! I miss my Emma. My life has been incomplete without all of my Fredonia lovers there on a daily basis. =(

So that’s my life right now. I’m officially 23, going crazy, and living life day by day. How are you doing?

allthestarzfell @ 2009-10-13T07:09:00

2009-10-13T11:10:13Z

kill me now kill me now kill me now. tomorrow's midterm is going to be the death of me.

the light at the end of the tunnel? afi concert on friday.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-10-04T21:36:00

2009-10-05T01:36:42Z

stressed stressed stressed.

i need tea.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-09-30T22:58:00

2009-10-01T03:00:32Z

I have two papers to write, and a million trillion zillion pages to read for grad school. But all I want to do is read the 3rd Sookie Stackhouse novel: Club Dead, and re-read The Lovely Bones. Man I can't wait for that movie to come out.

For now I'm going to stick with bed. Wednesdays I go nonstop (work and school) for 15hours. I'm beat.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-09-20T20:20:00

2009-09-21T00:21:16Z

my parents want me to start paying rent. to them. so i can live in my own home. live in the smallest room in my own home.

fml.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-09-17T19:12:00

2009-09-17T23:12:47Z

overwhelmed.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-09-05T20:50:00

2009-09-06T00:52:38Z

breaking news:
friday i landed my dream job. i now work full time at monroe 1 boces. as a paraeducater. in a classroom of severely disabled high schoolers. i get some seriously sweet health insurance. i get paid sick days. paid holidays. and paid personal days. and they have a tuition reimbursement of up to $6000 a semester for grad school.

heavennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-08-24T19:07:00

2009-08-24T23:07:39Z

tonight i started grad school. im stressed to the max already, and its only day one.

welcome to adulthood.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-08-14T15:20:00

2009-08-14T19:21:25Z

today i joined a gym. planet fitness to be exact. i want to lose weight, get in shape, and just generally feel good about myself. i have not felt very good about myself in a while. which i hate. i like feeling confident and secure. i miss the way i felt last fall. hopefully i can get back into it.

mike's cabin for the weekend!

allthestarzfell @ 2009-06-26T14:11:00

2009-06-26T18:14:23Z

so hey there.
Europe is amazing. Ireland was insanely awesome. I have had the time of my life here. France is just as wonderful. I can't even begin to describe all of the amazing things I have done, let along the feeling of independence and knowledge i have gained thus far on this trip. can i just say this one of the greatest things i have ever done?
ok, time to go for a walk along the town streets of langon, find some food for dinner, and engoy the gorgeous weather here.

back in the states on thursday. lots of stories for you then :)

salud!

allthestarzfell @ 2009-06-12T19:27:00

2009-06-12T23:34:38Z

I leave for Europe on Wednesday, and while I am so unbelievably excited I feel like I planned to be in a different financial situation before I left. I wanted to have way more money saved up for this trip and I wanted to have my credit card bill paid off more. Oi, I dunno. I am seriously looking forward to a nice long vacation though. NO WORK FOR 15 DAYSSS.

Today I happened to have the day off and I spent it sleeping in (which I haven't done in forever), visiting the zoo with Mike (another thing I have not done in forever), and then eating dinner at Famous Dave's (something I have never done). Now the Final Game of the Stanley cup is about to come on, I'm so full from an amazing meal, I need to figure out this prepaid phone bit so I hopefully have a means of communication while in Europe (so I have to run to the mall), then I will most likely pick Aaron up from work before turning in early before working all day tomorrow. No more days off before I leave for Europe! Insane.

I guess I should just be happy and feel lucky that I even get the chance to travel to Europe. :)

Au Revoire!

allthestarzfell @ 2009-05-14T23:06:00

2009-05-15T03:09:30Z

Today I landed a part time job working for the East Irondequit Children's Center as a preschool classroom aid. 7:45-11:15, M-F. I was so shocked and excited I didn't even ask how much I would be making. I start July 6th. The summer program is 6 weeks long. The only down side to all of this is that I will HAVE to miss my annual family vacation at our cottage. :( BUT- if this job turns into something permanent and I land a full-time position, they will help pay for grad school.

I feel like such an adult now.

P.s. I just realized I will be working 3 jobs this summer. OMG.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-05-04T21:50:00

2009-05-05T01:50:48Z

last week of student teaching. damn.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-04-23T23:00:00

2009-04-24T03:02:12Z

everytime i look at my credit card debt and realize how much i owe in student loans and how i have not even begun to do anything about financial aid for grad school, i end up having a panic attack. finances suck.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-04-10T10:34:00

2009-04-10T14:36:00Z

I love when my school gets put on lock-down: no one tells you what is going on, you have to close and lock all doors/windows, you have to blockade all doors/windows, you have to sit in a corner of the room, and you cant leave for ANYTHING.

This really, really sucks when you have to pee.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-04-07T06:39:00

2009-04-07T10:40:56Z

I think my body is rejecting me. All I have been doing is sleeping, throwing up, and battling headaches left and right. ugh.

Last weekend at Fredonia rocked. Too bad I got a speeding ticket on the way home. :(

Can I please be on Spring Break now?

allthestarzfell @ 2009-03-18T22:34:00

2009-03-19T02:35:17Z

Tomorrow I am making Crepes with my students. It's going to be awesome.

I'm such a cool teacher.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-02-28T21:09:00

2009-03-01T02:11:26Z

1. a picture of you in your room.

2. a picture with someone you dont actually like

3. a picture of you very drunk

4. a picture of you on your favorite holiday

5. a picture of you in one of your favorite outfits

6. a picture of you making a goofy face

7. a picture of a night you regret

8. a picture of you being yourself

9. your most recent picture

10. a picture of you being ridiculous

11. a picture of a time in your life that is over, but you wish wasn't

12. a picture of a time in your life that is over, and you couldn't be happier that it is

13. a picture of a time you are anything but happy
none
14. a picture you didn't know was being taken

15. a picture of you when you were a different person then you are now

16. a picture with someone you love

17. a picture of how you'd like the world to see you

18. a picture of how you'd like to spend everyday

19. a picture taken during a time of change

20. a picture that makes your heart hurt

21. a picture that makes your heart smile

22. a picture on one of your best days/night

allthestarzfell @ 2009-02-24T22:41:00

2009-02-25T03:41:47Z

im pretty sure i have a schizophrenic on my case load for student teaching.

allthestarzfell @ 2009-02-20T13:50:00

2009-02-20T18:52:56Z

Sweeney Todd at Geva Theater was AMAZING!

I recommend that you all go. ASAP. And buy the tickets from the Geva box office as opposed to online- since you can get a college student discount- I guess its $5 off, or $8 if you buy the day of the play.
Oh, and no seat is a bad seat. Mike and I were in the balconey off to the side and it was just fine. Geva is small enough so that all of the seats are good. :)

allthestarzfell @ 2009-02-18T22:51:00

2009-02-19T03:57:12Z

Flight to Cork, Ireland : 526.37
FLight from Cork, Ireland to Paris, France: 67.82
FLight from Bordeaux, France, back home: 549.43

Going back to Europe for over 2 weeks after I graduate because I freakin' deserve it: priceless. =)

I don't care if I have to sell my soul and work my ass off until the day I leave (June 23rd); the trip is booked, I'm going, and I couldn't be happier. =)

allthestarzfell @ 2009-02-15T22:25:00

2009-02-16T03:34:43Z

I'm taking Mike to see Sweeney Todd at Geva on Thursday. We both have the day off, so I hope it all goes perfect! The only problem is that I let slip how much the tickets were, and now I think Mike is pissed. Hey, entertainment is pricey now-a-days.

I'm officially home! No more undergraduate classes. Ever! No more working at Craston dining hall. Ever! Just student teaching from here on out, although I must say I am pretty intimidated. Last Tuesday I visited BOCES #1- where I'm student teaching, and all the kids there are SO much bigger than me! Heels or no heels, I'm a little frightened to tick any of those students off! Most of them are high school aged, and my case load seems very diverse. I got my parking sticker, I.D. tag, and building access. I even have my own desk! Crazy. My cooperating teacher is so sweet. She got me a lamp for my desk because "student teachers can't work in the dark!" On the day I visited she showed me around, then took me out to lunch and insisted on paying. Oh, and small world- her son-in-law to-be may know Mike.
I have this week off since the school districts are on their February breaks. I'm only working 3 days, so I guess I'll occupy myself with cleaning? Somebody book me, please!

Oh, and I'm selling my Wii. Know of anyone who wants a Wii? It's in great condition, I have a couple of games, including Guitar Hero (with guitar), 4 remotes, one nunchuck, and a cooling stand.